Because I was born a week before Christmas, my mother had seriously considered naming me “Merry” and there have been many times in my life when I wished she had. Her final choice, as so many baby names are, was more ego-driven – her name was Evelyn, so she named me Lynda, spelling it the alternate way, so we could be Lyn & Lynda. Cute, huh? “Lynda” if you look it up means beautiful, and for reasons that I can share later, it was the complete opposite of what I was on the day I was born. I’ve never understood the irony of her choice except to think it was wishful thinking on her part….which was not unusual for this woman.
So, I was christened with the initials LAM – and throughout my childhood when I would be introduced to my parents’ friends and acquaintances (it was a more formal world back then it seems), they would inevitably say: “Oh, like a little lamb without the ‘B’ !” To this day, I don’t understand why SO many people would all say the same thing to me. I didn’t look like a lamb (maybe if I’d had white curly hair it would make sense, but I was a flaming redhead as a child); and my personality was much more of a shy Merry than a lamb, because no matter what life seemed to throw at me (then, or now) I have a “half full” way of looking at things. Perhaps I was so shy, that I gave off those vibes. It’s not so much that I’m shy, as I am, so different. I learned that at an early age, and as a result, I tend to act in shy ways. Why were they immediately drawn to my initials? What was that all about, anyway?!
Fast forward to my first marriage in the early 1980s – to a man I was certain was my destiny and the man of my dreams. Had I added his name to mine – I’d have become a LAMB! I wondered about my destiny, laughed at the irony of it, but it just didn’t feel right! So I became a LAB instead, changing my last name to his.
Shattered and single again after 10 years of marriage, I began the reconstruction of my life, as a LAM, without the B, again. Time passes, I expand my studies of life and search for answers, I relocate to Alaska and start a whole new life, and all the while, with encouragement from my friends, it’s like an ember begins to glow inside of me. I’m reminded of the saying “don’t hide your light under a bushel basket.” More and more I’m told by friends and sometimes even strangers, that I have something to share. I should write a book, I should write a movie, were and are common suggestions from friends, strangers and many of my customers.
Eventually, I remarried. That was in 2001, so I’ve had this name and these new initials all this time without even realizing the further irony of it. In 2007 I picked a copy of the book “The Secret” and although I’d been studying life my entire life, this book, and the subsequent reading it led me to, provided me with the breakthrough I needed. I GET it now, and I want everyone to “get it” the way I do. Shout it from the mountain tops is how I feel; light up the world, illuminate and enlighten…..will you agree, will you see the irony I see, when looking at my initials now? LAMP! Friends started calling me LAMP, in earnest, in 2009. It was in late 2009 I decided to accept this “calling.”
I believe if everyone were to understand the basic physics of the reality that surrounds us, we’d all be a lot happier. When examined under the strongest magnifying microscope we have, everything looks the same. Everything looks the same because everything IS the same. We ARE all one. We are ALL connected. We, and everything around us, and how life responds to us, is energy. I want everyone to understand this!
I truly feel as if I have found my destiny-had people said “just like a little lamp without the p” would I have gotten here sooner? Or, as a friend of mine recently asked, would that have simply doomed me to a life of urinary problems?! LOL …..The mysteries of the universe – I’ll never know I guess, but it’s fun to think about.
So there you have it Dear Readers, how I started as a Merry and ended as a LAMP! I have become, I am, LAMP in Alaska. Hello. Nice to meet you. I hope I and my writings will be of value to at least someone 🙂
I’m updating this in February of 2016. I have adopted the pen name of Lynda LAMP and am penning a book titled Walking Through Your Walls: Loving Yourself and Everyone Else, Humanity’s Handbook for Living Consciously in the 21st Century.
Exciting times are ahead! I hope you’ll join me.
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